*Language can be both limiting and unifying. If I felt regretful at all during the process of creating this website, it was realizing how the limitations of language and the historical context of certain words would naturally create separation or disconnect among readers. Please excuse any perceptions or interpretations I’ve created in the mind of anyone reading this, as my intention when writing this entire “About” section was simply to express; you will hear and see what you need to receive.

– Several years ago at the age of 30, I experienced an energetic phenomenon, which I refer to by: my defining event, my initial awakening, my arrival, or a spiritual emergence/emergency.. I was sitting in bed one day with my dog & my cat during Winter Storm Uri in Austin, TX, trying to regulate my anxiety when the event began. This awakening occurred in a moment where I was caring for myself more intentionally than I ever had before, and I was practicing gratitude vigorously. About two hours later, I “woke up” to a vastly different life than I had known before. Instead of just experiencing life, I was witnessing reality in a way I never knew possible, though something familiar and comforting about it. And because my foundation is built around logic & rationality, medical/scientific frameworks, and trauma-informed care, my work organically pivoted towards creating supportive systems for people experiencing phenomena spanning the full breadth and depth of humanity, including those outside of culturally accepted paradigms.

– I don’t see the work I do as something I can take credit for. It’s something that moves through me, a force shaped by the cycles of life, the wisdom of the Earth, all of the people who’ve influenced me, and the unseen. Some may call it spirit, source, God, or a variety of other words. I’m grateful to be a vehicle for this flow. And also, I take ownership of how I show up; my choices, my impact, and the emotions/stories that make up my life.

– My journey at the intersection of diversity and lived experience informs and inspires this work. So do the tireless voices that never stopped calling for change. I show up to this space as a student and a conduit of our ancestors, a vehicle of the collective consciousness and unconsciousness. As someone who has served on the front lines working directly with our most marginalized communities, supporting emergency response initiatives, and getting into good trouble. A servant of all life, who also is completely okay with upsetting a room of people; discomfort within the window of tolerance is fertile ground for growth, and even though our ancestors may not have had that option, we get to heal in community while continuing to honor the people and the work that came before us. And let us not worry about tracking mud on someone’s carpet. It may lead them to discover the cracks in their foundation.

– Based on my own experience and in observation of pretty much everyone I know, we all seem to be on different parts of a similar path, having an entire shared experience with similar phenomena throughout our lives. This is my reason for sharing a variety of services. These offerings are based on parts of my journey that were so influential in my life, I wanted to train in them and learn how to share them with others. They were like stepping-stones to the next chapter in my story. Life is a constant waking up to the subtleties that make up existence. Like zooming out on a camera lens and adjusting the aperture to slowly make the image more inclusive and clear.

– One can intuitively “know” about something. But if you only know a blueberry by name and not by taste, you’re simply giving lip service to the idea of a blueberry. This is how I view presence and consciousness. It is apparent that many people only have a general idea of what it means to be present or conscious. The current socially accepted paradigm of consciousness and “reality” is limiting, and ripe for personal liberation and collective transcendence.

– We arrive at what cannot be spoken. Only lived.

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BIG “ALSO“: Never forget that playfulness is an incredibly powerful catalyst for self-work. Everything I’ve written on this page so far has undertones of compassion, resolution, and sincerity. However, this thought right <here> was made to ground me, my work, this website, and yourself into SACRED PLAY.
It is a reminder and an invitation to:
– loosen the jaw & drop the shoulders
– notice your breath
– feel your body & surroundings
– wiggle those lil toesies

– and SKAKE THAT AZZ!

Get curious with it. Laugh about yourself.

Be intentional about embracing that silly little goose inside you. Gently coax it out of its silly little hidey-hole. Come on out, little winged creature, spread your silly little wings already. They are beautiful wings.

Have you ever seen it? When someone spreads their wings? You just watch them soar. You watch them fly.


Healing is not a monolith.
Sorry not sorry, my fundamentalist friends.
MEOW.

I work with anyone curious enough to explore. Seekers of all kinds. All of you is/are welcome here.

While this work is for everyone, my heart holds a deep well of compassion for those at the layered intersection of humanity and universal suffering. Any and all transient experiences; this is because of you. My path has lived at these crossroads and I’ve come to understand that true healing doesn’t bypass reality; it honors the full spectrum. This work is an offering to the world in reverence of our human experience. I am here in service to all life.

I’ve walked through the fire of spiritual language that felt disconnected from lived struggle. I know the cognitive dissonance, the nervous system dysregulation, the complete exhaustion that shows up in spaces that perpetuate systemic inequity, or imbalance in general.

You are not a voice echoing down empty halls.
You are not alone in your becoming.
You are the arrival.
You fill in the _____.

Altru-Activism
This is conscious service from the inside out. One that is rooted in self-remembrance & devoted the collective. Transformative & restorative justice all the way down to the root. This is my offer to you; a minimal footprint/low-consumption path to activating your internal power grid, so that you may be a source of energy, community, creativity, connection, healing, peace, abundance, and much more, for yourself and for others. The world we’re calling in won’t come alive until it’s realized from within. Altru-Activism is the container of my practice, which includes:

• Contemplative Fitness Coaching & Guidance
  This is essentially resistance training. I approach contemplation/meditation practice the same way one would approach physical fitness, combining traditional and contemporary techniques for an informed & results-based practice. Strengthen your ability to witness what is occurring in the vast space of consciousness, but always anchor in the form of sensations. In this way, one is refining the capacity to concentrate & gain insight into the nature of being. Meditation is not just cross legged, eyes closed, on a cushion; it’s a way of orienting the mind towards moment-to-moment present awareness, which brings the practice to life. This has a way of improving all other aspects of one’s life, so I consider it instrumental for all human endeavors.
  
  
• Spiritual Support
  When we approach our experience intentionally, life becomes ritual. Life becomes ceremony. Whatever life circumstance you are navigating, having awareness for this type of work can be helpful for regulation & deeper connection. I often turn to the simplicity of turning any moment into a intentional container using whatever is available. It could be a combination of mantras, breath work, prayer, religious practice, visual/vocal invocations, guided meditations, holding a relic or devotional object, using scents or texture, alter setting, etc. These tools and simple actions help us tend to the unseen, mark the sacred amongst the ordinary, & to make meaning out of life. We can also explore your ancestral lineage to incorporate any tools or traditions that may hold significance for you. Intentional cleansing practices have been helpful in my life to release stagnant energy, heavy emotions, stress, and old patterns while also inviting in a renewed sense clarity, balance, protection, and/or peace. I offer this with gratitude and reverence.
  
  
• Somatic Processing & Decoupling
  Explore the subconscious, where patterns, emotions, memories, & limiting beliefs are often held beneath conscious awareness. This practice gently guides you into connection with the soma, the living/sensing body. Through presence-based exploration & emotional release, one can begin to unwind the imprints of past experiences stored in the nervous system & tissues of the body. Going deeper into this work invites one to move beyond performative efforts into the heart of healing work. Rooted in historical awareness, accountability, & traditional healing frameworks, this practice also explores how human-made systems shape our inner space & collective structures. Through a combination of facilitated dialogue & somatic reflection, we examine the ways unresolved pain, whether personal, communal, or historical, shows up in our relationships, institutions, families, occupation, etc. This practice, at the right time in my life, yielded great insights and healing.
  
  
• Sacred Space Holding / Intuitive Reflection
  This is the practice of being fully present with yourself without fixing, analyzing, or directing, which facilitates qualities such as connection, curiosity, safety, & spaciousness. Rooted in presence, subtle energetic sensing, and open dialogue, we attune to what’s alive beneath the surface. This work supports connection to your own intuition, helping you return to a state of integrated clarity. In a world that often rushes to solve or perform, simply being witnessed and reflected without judgment in a grounded presence can be transformative. This is presence in a way that honors your pace, your truth, and your journey. Its impact can soften defenses, clarify inner knowing, and open the door to natural unfolding. I work closely with stillness and silence; they are powerful and benevolent tools.
  
  
• Crisis Response & Mutual Aid
  With 12+ years of experience as a Bachelor’s level Social Worker in a variety of roles, I offer grounded, trauma-informed support in moments of rupture, overwhelm, or conflict. Whether interpersonal, physical, mental, or spiritual in nature, this work creates space for calm, clear, & compassionate navigation through high-intensity situations. This work is about creating a moments for people to orient themselves or be guided back to stability, autonomy, and dignity. The most important part of this work for me is discernment & knowing the appropriate channels of support to triage.
  
  
• Nature Integration Work
  Natural experiences can be catalysts for deep insight, emotional release, & interconnection. Yet without intentional integration, their messages may remain incoherent or create distortion. Whether from medicine work, energetic phenomena, or other profound experiences, this offer focuses on bringing the wisdom to light. Grounded in trauma-informed care and harm reduction, your safety & stability are the most important aspects of weaving the experience into daily life.
  
  

End of Life Care
I have been in caregiver roles throughout my time as a social service worker, as well as in my friendships, relationships, and family. At the time of creating this website, I have walked alongside my aging parents as caregiver for almost 2 years during this sacred time in their lives. Aside from that, I have extensive experience with supporting grieving individuals & families during these significant transitions. I am a steward of mental and spiritual care, supported by a lifetime of intentional devotion to body, mind, & spirit. I not only provide compassionate bedside care to individuals & family members preparing for end-of-life, I also provide assistance navigating medical needs, hospice care, insurance concerns, legal documentation (including securing assets/estate planning). End-of-life care offers both practical relief for loved ones, a dignified and compassionate space for the person transitioning, and honors the spiritual depth of aging & our mortality.

*The majority of services are offered on a gift-based/sliding scale, honoring accessibility and reciprocity.

I am of the mind that healing has become commodified into a business, one that can be expensive based on those who restrict access to healing through financial ability. I am just as happy to place a value on my sessions as I am to offer them on a donation or sliding-scale system. I believe a reason that healing is a business is because we lost the ability to do that for each other as family and friends. However, I also believe that money also has the ability to reveal and heal us, much more in the way we relate to money versus how we use it. In this way, I will continue in my efforts of decentralizing these healing practices and redistributing to communities with financial barriers. Support of any kind is welcome.

Venmo: @virtuallyesteban
CashApp: $spacemajic

For all practical purposes, I am Esteban Olave.
This is my virtual space.

My story is similar to many others. I created an identity around my experiences and circumstances early on. As time passed, certain aspects improved, while others worsened or stayed relatively neutral. Somewhere in those early years I was developing awareness of nuanced facets of my internal and external world, beginning to internalize the perceptions and beliefs that would influence and shape the person I’ve become and continue to grow into.

Like a traveler passing through vast terrain and unexpected turns, I’ve been shaped by infinite micro-moments, subtle yet significant, scattered across time and space. Along the way, certain pivotal shifts have emerged in my life, like mountain peaks, offering me clarity or uncertainty for the next leg of my journey.

From an early age, fear had naturally been instilled into me, passed down as a survival mechanism which served many generations before me well. The protection and environmental awareness I gained from that upbringing has shaped a large part of my early life, including all of the unnecessary suffering I created for myself and others.

However, just as one might leave a raft behind after crossing a stream, I too have continued on my path with a sense of non-grasping and willingness to travel onward when life asked this of me.

That primal fear had been surviving and thriving in every part of my being for a long time, and created a lifetime of conditions and experiences I would not wish on anyone. However, it was not my fear. And as I became more aware of this conditional fear, I began to intentionally seek out opportunities to illuminate my subconscious world and integrate my past.

For clarity, I was not trying to distance myself from this fear, suffering, or pessimism; I just realized these qualities had actually been the catalysts in the search to improve my human experience and support my communities.

I’ve always gravitated towards understanding life beyond the surface. There’s a natural and playful curiosity that lives there. And I appreciate being guided to moments of insight and revelation, like breadcrumbs on a trail.

My path diverged from the generational trajectory my family had been heading towards. And in a way, I know my path didn’t really diverge or go away from anything; it’s been following a thread of interdependent moments that connect all of us since the beginning of time.

I am grateful for the way service work found me. For the way it is me at my core. My life is the service and the impact.

~ Words that resonate deep within and remind me of where I come from, where my vibration begins and ends. ~

My most enduring teachers have been life itself through lived experience, self-reflection, the internet, preserved writing, and the wisdom woven into interactions that unfolded with clever-curious souls along the way.

My formal educational background includes:

• Bachelor of Arts in Social Work (class of 2013) with over a decade of experience supporting individuals navigating the medical system, community resources, support networks, trauma, crisis, substance use, and altered states of consciousness. I have trained worked in trauma-informed care and harm reduction for over ten years, offering education, outreach, and crisis support.
  
  
• 5+ years of self-guided studies in:
  • insight/concentration-based meditation training through systems and traditions of universal philosophies
  • breathwork practices rooted in yogic/shamanic traditions
  • energetic practices focusing on becoming aware of, and channeling subtle life-force within the body-mind
  • understanding meditation and consciousness through a systemic lens, being able to learn techniques as well as the granular details of how consciousness develops, and being able to create repeatable results through standardized processes
    
    
• 15+ years practicing with nature and learning to honor ancient healing traditions during a time when our culture is rapidly commodifying the wisdom found through our connection with the earth. May we continue to perceive the medicine during our current climate and environment.